Tease me , I tease you!

Finished another one. To see the whole kit and caboodle go to

my side link for my art stuffs !

Whot a weekend. Nothing got done but some deep dark realizations and acceptance of what will be will be. Meh.

music of the day: Rodrigo y Gabriela, Soft Boys, The English Beat

food of the day: that really BAD lunch I'm trying to forget

mood of the day: Clearer head, slightly less heavy heart, darkening soul with a sliver of gold inside

The Day!

You know what it takes to save what looks to be a super crappy, bad mood, sad kinda day?

Not much. Just a few words can do it.

Today started out with me dreading it. You know, the -"Not feeling like painting, feeling blocked, ugly mood, depressed, menopausal, missing my ex to death -kinda day?" That's the one .

Anyway, I went to the mall to try to at least walk off my blues, while pretending to shop for new clothes. I felt frumpy in all my over sized stuff and NOT wanting to go out in public at all, I tried to assume the "Invisible mode" I'm so good at; Stealth and Fast ( I hate clothes shopping.can you tell? )

Anyway, In Macy's , full frustration mode at not being able to find one thing I liked, browsing but not seeing the baubles, rings and lipsticks before me , avoiding all eye contact with everyone, mood worsening by the second, I hear behind me "EXCUSE ME!" Turning , expecting the worse from an aggressive salesclerk or the super worse, security thinking I'm up to some shenanigans, it was a middle aged woman tapping me on the shoulder. She then said to me: " I just had to tell you how fantastic I think you look! You look so smart and pulled together".

Wahhhhhhhhh? MY mouth practically dropped. "ME?" I responded kind of incredulously .

"OH wow, really?And here I am thinking I'm so frumpy all the time!"

"Yes, I just love how you are dressed and you look so pretty and and stylish"

Well after I thanked her and we exchanged fast pleasantries and happiness of the day to each other, I did a fast look in a nearby mirror to see what maybe I had not been able to see.

O.K, I was wearing my standard bluejeans , black top , hoodie, and funky yoga scarf from World Market,with my romper stomper boots and sharp red lipstick. "Hmm", I thought, " Not as frumpy as I originally thought". That'll do!

I wear my sorrow on my face a lot, most think it's just an arty- moody suffering Wuthering Heights kind of beauty I exude now. Maybe they're right. But dang, I do look o.k.

O.K that's not the point of this post anyway. MY point is, just some nice words , not much of an effort really, can really turn around someones day.

Thank you lady in Macy's that admired me. I will try to live up to it more ! And I won't be so hard on myself about stuff I can do nothing about, and being so hyper critical all the time of myself and make more of an effort to do what I can about stuff I CAN do something about.

Pass it on.

music of the day: Dandy Warhols, Robyn Hitchcock

food of the day: that cool weird sandwich I had in Nordys

mood of the day: lightened :D

Funday is Sunday

I admit it, I am a slacker when it comes

to posting on my blog thang.

I always have a good reason though.

My latest is: I am painting, or at least trying to paint, like a madwoman. With a potential show

in March I have been asked to participate in, I better paint. ( thanks Miss Jane for the shout out! read her dammit!) I'm still selling

the teeny ones, though not many more will be around. I work so much better a bit larger sized.

(DAMN THESE EYES!).

Above is a detail from some sort of weird one I started the other day. Not only is it bigger, it's in OIL paint. I haven't used them in ages due to the fact my allergies tended to make every moment working with them a haze of fumes, itching, smells, and frustration. Now ,with water mixable oils part of that horror has been removed. Clean ups a breeze, but I still am dealing with some allergy issues when using them. I don't care though. The blend like no-bunnies bidness and I found some nice priced tubes I decided to experiment with.

We suffer for our art.

I have no idea what that painting is about yet, but working from dark to light is fun, the trees popped out suddenly, I couldn't even see them until I got some good work light on it and it started to dry a bit. There's more but it's so muckety mucked up right now I don't want to show it.

Bad part of oil painting: The DRYING time. UG. I forgot how fricking LONG it takes to dry, long enough that you have to stop working on a painting after a while and let it be to start to set before you go at it again. Working on multi paintings at a time helps but I rarely do more than one at a time. Time to change habits. I think most of my stuff for the show will have to be the ol' reliable acrylics.

(le' sigh)

music of the day: suggestions?

food of the day: squishy stuff

mood of the day: scared it won't go away...

COMIC DAY!

The most wonderful day of the week. Well, o.k maybe not THAT wonderful ,but still
pretty darn fun! SO skeedaddle over to webegirls for some chuckles.

Brain fog is a nice new thing. I think it hits when you achieve , like, level 8 on the
"lack of sleep " scale. I have a friend that suffer insomnia constantly, I honestly have NO idea how she does it. Kudos to you missy, kudos.


music of the day: assorted mayhem
food of the day: whole grain bread and peanut butter, and that pesky salad
mood of the day: fuzzy, like pooh...

Hmmm

Strange things indeed afoot..of the mystical kind. From two different sources too!
Well so far this year has gotten off to a bang ! A long lost friend from my past contacted me
just as my yearly horrorscope predicted, not that I believe in that sort of thing mind you, but hokey smokes! It predicted more than one and in the past 5 days I have been contacted by 2. In the past 4 months? No less than 5. Now if George Clooney calls I really AM gonna have to pay more attention to the mystical side of life!





hey I think I forgot to post this.. It ran yesterday. Much thanks to my pal Mark for asking and digging what I could spew out for him, babe wise!







music of the day: Robyn H. ( again, yeah I know!)
food of the day: avocado!
mood of the day: satiated in a mystical way

HAPPY HAPPY

NEW YEAR me maties!
Since I did nothing to ring in the NEW, save for reflecting on the past year, (You know;what worked, what didn't ,what sucked, who i loved, lost, saved...created...ate......yadda yadda.)
I awoke fresh as a little bunny, and proceeded to spend a good part of the day watching the Absolutely Fabulous marathon on BBC America. For some reason it felt right, running in and out of my art studio literally watching paint dry, running back to the t.v then back to paint during commercials. How goofy am I?

Anyway, ignore that painting I posted down below, decided I hated the neon glow so it's gone..now I can put the mutha' up for sale.
Hows $200.00 sound? Hey! It's a BIGGER painting o.k? And my unemployment ran out sooooooooo mama needs a new pair of shoes..so how bout it sexies?

Insomnia's Bitch
©2012 p.j.leidy

music of the day: Robyn Hitchcock, Black Francis, Mission of Burma (retro rules!)
food of the day: that weird salad in a bag I got today
mood of the day: seriously, It fluctuates between moments of pure joy and appreciation to anguish and pure self loathing.... HAHAHHAHA ( every cartoonists minefield of fodder for a strip..speaking of you notice there IS no strip for today over at webegirls. P.J needed a brain break for a week..but will be back next week!)

Happy New ...yadda yadda

checking search words that led people to my blog today :
moe hay ko and her boyfriend is one and another was: comic pictures of back pain.
Having no clue who Moe Hay Ko is I apologize I didn't come through for you searcher in the Phillipines.
Now comic pictures of back pain..well I'm sure there's something hidden somewhere in this red hot mess I call a blog.

Can't decide if I ruined this painting or not with the neon highlights..anyone? Anyone? Bueller?
Bueller?
Anyway, whatever you decide to do to ring in the New Year , be safe and be silly. It's the only way to live.

If the mood or attitude or whatever you're doing on New Years eve indicates the coming years mood for you , then I better get on the stick here and buckle it all down! Yikes!

music of the day: Faces, Battles
food of the day: choke it down patty!
mood of the day: Insomnia's main bitch now, all bets are off, stay out of my way ! HUZZAH!

COMIC MONDAY

It's a comic. It be here,at webegirls.
Go and recover from the fun and frivolity of the past few and future few days we have had.

Fun for all.



Watch out now. I'm fully protected for the coming year too!
Lady Nagini has got her eye on me!!

music of the day: meh
food of the day: mah
mood of the day: moe

HO HO HO

Here, this is about as Xmasy as I can get this year. The photo is from when I used to do a big tree,kinda German style, but stopped cuz it took so long to do and no one ever really saw it. (say hi to Aloysius there in the sweater.I forget the other little dudes name though..I'm a bad mother!)
It was pretty though!

Today is keep on painting day and deal with body crash.
I FINALLY got some sleep two nights running, but at a slight
medicated cost the next day.
I don't care, I slept, I had a weird mystical dream about my ex, I didn't drool too much on the pillow, and I had sheet creases in my face the next day.
All signs of a deep sleep. Praise Shiva!


music of the day: SOFT BOYS, ROBYN HITCHCOCK, Replacements, Big Star.
You owe it to yourself to be at least familiar with these boys!
food of the day: whatever stays down
mood of the day: lighter, breathing, living and loving you.


p.s: George Clooney, your package must have gotten lost in the post. Best you give me a call!

happy holidaze everyone!

whatever you do, believe, or want. I hope everything goes your way for the holiday and the coming year!

LOVE you all.

I'm a painting fool!

music of the day: assorted
food of the day: tuna stuff
mood of the day : I slept last night, so much better...

Get ye over to webegirls.com for your holiday treat!


Man, am I a grumpy Gus these days. Lack of sleep will destroy you faster than anything. No wonder they use sleep deprivation as means of torture. I am a tad to grumpy to be socially interacting with ANYONE these days, so I use that as an excuse to be the super anti-social butterfly that I am.

Side notes, me sitting here in my studio with my window wide open and it's like, 28 degrees outside. Does THAT tell you anything about my condition?
Though I've been feeling a bit manic lately, I thought I would be channeling my energy into more painting, not more grousing and gnashing of teeth!


( Great side note, I have now lost so much weight that my little cute plaid punk skirt circa 1991 that I use to wear is now officially too big ! So besides that kinda happy fact, I now have nothing to wear on my rare forays out to the goth club...sigh... I realize all my pals in Atlanta might not recognize me,since when I moved from there I was about 70 pds. (or possibly more )heavier..tee hee...though I don't know how much good that is if I'm dead from exhaustion..but I will make a lovely corpse..Bwahaha)


music of the day: assorted fun, Wussy, MC5 ( yes AGAIN!) , Bassnectar.
food of the day: whatever I can choke down
mood of the day: obviously short tempered and on a fuse so away I hide...

Yum.

Christmas goose dinner at Le Central last night.
the Yule log was especially chocolaty too, and I'm not a huge sweet freak by any means. Must be all the angst of late. I did manage to eat some of it,but was so stuffed on the snails app that I brought most of it home. So , yeah me, I get to eat it again for lunch!
Thanks to my dinner companion for lending an ear and being so sweet to treat!

Time to "art it up" gang!

music of the day: The Horrors, MC5, Gorillaz, Bassnectar, and maybe even some Marvellettes!
food of the day: see above
mood of the day: seeing the trees and feeling the love.

ooooh

that is all..carry on now.

o.k sooo ( bonus post)

if you're easily offended then...well you woudln't be reading my blog. But anyway,
this has got to be one of my new favorite shows!
Jus sayin'
Much thanks to pal Owen to heppin' me to this jive...

YA! New comic up at webegirls
It's holiday mayhem time so calm your ass down a bit with my
handy tips.




Ventured out socially for the first time in 2 weeks last night. Anxiety always hits me before stuff like that ,but it always ends up lovely and me wondering what I was so worried about.
Being among pals, with good food and laughs is always a great 'cheer-upper' thing.

Today is keep on painting day!
Here's the painting I gave to the birthday boy last night too, now that I can show it.











"Cleo shows off her new pet, Mr. Nibbles"
©2011 p.j.leidy




music of the day: retro; MC5, television, buzzcocks
food of the day: I'll let you know when I can choke some down
mood of the day: waking up a bit from the fog of uncertainty and sorrow,(but still a bit lack of sleep fuzzy)

You're a ...

..devil dog in a rainbow cloud....



music of the early morning: the incessant buzzing of the refrigerator
food of the day: not much
mood of the day: angsty, something is brewing , and it's not pretty.

OH no..not again!

Sooooooo , I thought I'd beat everyone to the punch and admit, yes, I did indeed go out again with the ol' ex George.
Now before you start lecturing me on why I shouldn't have. The late night drunk calls from overseas he'd make after breaking up with one of his super model girlfriends for one . The sloppy pleas for one more chance again, the strange gifts arriving at odd times for another..
But , c'mon, LOOKIT the guy? Can you blame me? He's divine! I do have issues with the whole
"he makes my head look big and weird cuz his is so small" thing. But I think I can live with it.

Green is NOT my best color so I know I look kinda pale here in this photo, but I had no idea the paparazzi were so aggressive and so many! I have NO idea how George can deal with it.
But being George Clooney comes with some pain I can see that now..
Like when I tell him, we tried but, meh it just didn't work. I can't deal with all the trips to far off exotic places, Italian food doesn't agree with me, and I just can't get over the fact he is not a big fan of Godzilla.

Thas all I'm saying. So , George , if you're reading this, I'm sorry and please tell Matt Damon that
yes, I would like to go to Paris with him next spring.




music of the day: buzzy OM hum in my ears
food of the day: not much
mood of the day: feeling better at times then, wham!

NEW COMIC, NEW DAY.

At the good ol' webegirls.com. Somethings just don't end like you planned, Neither of you
saw it coming. Or maybe you did and just ignored the signs. Hoping for the best, and thinking
you could weather any storm. Just Breath.
Rise above, Surrender. See what comes.


music of the day: waterboys ,assorted fun
food of the day: meh..you call that food?
mood of the day: sleepless surrender




http://grooveshark.com/s/Crown/2SM8Nc?src=5

play LOUD.

HEY!

Get well wishes to Steve Cohen!
It sux to be in hospital I know....so..hang in there buddy!

painting day today..hmm strippers and boobies! Look! It's a pimp couch!!






music of the day: deerhunter, rusko, assorted stuffs
food of the day: whatever I can choke down
mood of the day: I'm dealing with it, up and down..needing a hug.

too bad...

That could have been us.

oops

I forgot to do the webegirls comic thing..
yeah there's one there..


recovering from badness always takes alot out of you..especially at 3 in the morning, watching it snow.. I'm a bit tired of the "watching it snow" nights.. when do I get to "sleep well with no regrets"?