Monday, February 8, 2010
hee hee..good thing I don't have to BE anywhere...coff coff..
which led me to think these thoughts in my fevered ,self indulgent,whiney state:
I accept that I am a loner. Sure I like to
go out, meet friends,do things,hang out...but when it comes right down to it,
I seem to still really crave being alone in my own space.It has it's benefits for
sure.No answering to anyone about anything. Hence my no desire for a roommate, or, I think
life mate, at least a mate that actually lived in the same place as me.(hee hee)
I seem to be the "yeah yeah, that was fun, no go home" typa gal for all my days.
But when yer sick? Ah, sick! That's where I change my tune. No one is around to tuck you in, bring you soups, tissues, sock monkeys ,
meds and blankets. No one listens to you hack up a lung, or run to the bath to puke. No one sees if you have a fever and gets you ice. No one knows if you ate or not that day. No one thinks if a 4 hour marathon of Arrested Development is a good medicinal move.
And no, I'm not pathetic, I DO have pals checking in with me. And I AM taking care of myself quite well by myself ,thank you very much. But,that's a bit different. Innit? Maybe in my encroaching years I am thinking different. Maybe it would be nice to have someone around. Someone that is there for you. Sweet.
Or maybe it's just the fucking fever talking.....